Sunday, November 8, 2009

It's that time of year.

In 2 ER shifts (roughly 24h total), I euthanized 10 animals - everything from the laterally recumbent, anemic, hypothermic, flea covered 2 month old kitten drop-off to the 14 year old, dearly loved family dog that is acutely down in the rear. I'm feeling kind of numb right now and very bummed. It's funny how that kind of stress manifests itself after the fact. I wasn't crying or upset during any of the euthanasias, but here I am...sitting here, questioning everything I do, and feeling very insecure about myself.

Time to make cheesecake.


Mary said...

I'm so sorry. I hope you got a nice hug from your husband and that the cheesecake helped a bit.

I still get teary-eyed thinking of the chipmunk that died in my hands at the wildlife rehabilitation center, and that was 5 years ago.

You are a very strong person.

Amy said...

I get like that too. When a patient dies I can't cry and I don't want to cry... at least not there. I usually scream/cry or otherwise talk to God about the injustice and pain of it all in the car.
Just take one day at a time :)

Nicki said...

Cheesecake is almost always helpful

Elizabeth said...

Starting to worry, you have't posted in a week. Hope you are ok..

The Homeless Parrot said...

Nope, I'm fine. This is my "long" week on - Wed/Thurs night, Sat/Sun daytime, Mon/Tues night shift. I'm exhausted, but interesting stuff to come including the case of the decapitated teddy bear and the dog with the crushed lungs and heart...(whom I saved!).