Not so amusing

I'm so depressed right now that I want to curl up into the fetal position and sleep for about 2 months. You know what makes depression better? Working in the ER on Labor Day. I can't think of anything more fun.

This weekend was supposed to be great. My best friend and her husband (coincidentally, my brother-in-law) are here for the weekend. We had planned a big trip to our local amusement park that is very similar to 6 Flags. It was part of a 30th birthday extravaganza celebration (mine in June, hers in July).

The weekend was kicked off by the realization that one of our cats - the youngest, never been outdoors, completely timid/scaredy cat, that I've had since she weighed a mere 6 oz snuck out of the house. She has been gone for 4 days. I've posted on craigslist, put fliers on every box in our neighborhood, called work several times to ensure that no one showed up with her injured, and posted fliers at our local vet clinics, and yet NO ONE has seen her. We live within about 40 yards of a busy road, which my husband and I canvass daily. I'm devastated and keep lying in bed at night thinking of terrible scenarios.

To top it off, I foolishly exposed myself quite liberally to a nasty infectious disease at work last weekend - leptospirosis. So, I'm taking antibiotics, which I think are making me sick. This isn't a precaution. I was literally covered in this dog's urine, and urine is the main method of transmission.

To top off the intermittent diarrhea and nausea, as well as the general poor-doing, today was the big amusement park day. I haven't been to an amusement park since I was 13, and our class took a trip to Opryland. At the time, I loved roller coasters. I woke up feeling very poorly this morning, but I didn't want to bail on the 30th birthday trip. Off we went. I made it onto 3 roller coasters before being overwhelmed by the MOST intense nausea, light-headednes, and vertigo that I have EVER experienced in my life. I could barely make it to the bench to lie down. Granted, it was hot today, we stood in lines (but not THAT long), and the final roller coaster had 4 or more upside down loops and went around 60 miles an hour...but still...I have been incapacitated ever since. My husband brought me home so our friends wouldn't miss out on the experience.

I think I'm going to lie in bed and cry.